August 31, 2009

Light at the end of the tunnel

A friend of mine had a really tough year. She was in the process of selling her home and well, it got the best of her. I remember meeting her for lunch and her telling me about how they had been on the market for over a year, the showings were not going well and feedback was just as bad on the home. To be honest, I didn't understand why she would want to leave her cute home, but you could see it chipping away at her and her livelihood. I promised myself that I would try to not let myself get in that zone should I be in the same shoes; I broke a promise to myself.

Our home went on the market back in September of 2008. We were in the process of moving to California and the housing market was about to crash into foreclosure land. When things didn't work out with our move, we decided we'd keep it on the market, sell and move to another part of town to be out of a wall-sharing years and into our first grown-up home. So here we are almost a year later and if we are to sell our townhouse today, we'd owe on it. I am frustrated, I am mad and I getting depressed. I understand the feeling of stuck my friend felt; not just physically in our neighborhood, but emotionally in this rut. How did I let myself get in this place where the smallest thing sets me off?

I am trying to get myself back into my happy place and this road looks long and narrow. I blame the economy for being so crappy. I blame our president for not helping us who pay our mortgage on time and have nothing to show for it and I blame myself for letting it all get the best of me. So for now, I am going to try and google as many happy, hopefully, don't give up quotes and focus on what I can change, which is my attitude.

p.s. My friend sold her home a few months ago to start the building of her new home when it fell through and the company filed chapter 11. She is now building another new home and living in a apartment making the best of what is yet to come.

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